It’s been a long while and I’m just not sure where to start… I thought about just starting where I left off chronologically but then I realized that I just need to write a post, a personal post, marking my spot, where I am at right here right now.
My summer left me re-evaluating the important things. Things like my family and the changes in our life, my health and how taking care of myself is as important as taking care of all those around me (maybe even more important because you just can’t give from an empty cup), discovering just how hard it was to say goodbye to a beloved pooch and the quality of life I want to live, to live for me.
It was a summer of slowing down, being still and reconnecting.
Now there is a crispness in the air and the leaves are changing and fall is upon us. I often looked at this time of year as a new page, crisp and white. This year September has me feeling like change is just around the corner; the start of a new chapter is on the horizon. At the moment I am just not sure what that will look like and I am trying my best to embrace the unknown and that isn’t always a comfortable feeling for someone who is always feeling the need to be ready for what’s coming. Not something you can prepare for if you have no idea what IT really is. So, I have decided that my fall personal project will be a journey to discover a little more of who I am and doing a little soul reaching, soul connecting, soul surfing… soul lovin’. I am a little scared and a whole lot excited.
I read this the other day.
”I think midlife is when the universe gently places her hands upon your shoulders, pulls you close, and whispers in your ear:
I’m not screwing around. It’s time. All of this pretending and performing – these coping mechanisms that you’ve developed to protect yourself from feeling inadequate and getting hurt – has to go.
Your armor is preventing you from growing into your gifts. I understand that you needed these protections when you were small. I understand that you believed your armor could help you secure all of the things you needed to feel worthy of love and belonging, but you’re still searching and you’re more lost than ever.
Time is growing short. There are unexplored adventures ahead of you. You can’t live the rest of your life worried about what other people think. You were born worthy of love and belonging. Courage and daring are coursing through you. You were made to live and love with your whole heart. It’s time to show up and be seen.”
~ Brené Brown
Yup, it’s definitely time to show up and be seen.
Feels so good to be back blogging and sharing my art. I hope you enjoy this collection of fall beauty from a recent trip out to Cat Creek Falls, Kananaskis Country with my parents and my beautiful border collie girl as we adjust to life without our sweet Keeko.